Rewinding

It's the summer of 8 years ago and I'm in over my head. But, this time I pretend it's different. I always feel too much, think too much, want too much. For good or for bad, it's the way that I'm made. There's never been a touch of indifference in anything I do. Even now, when I marvel that apathy seems to be creeping in and I choose to encourage it, I secretly realize I'm fooling myself like I always do. There's something constantly stirring, waiting in the wings, watching for a chance meeting with weakness to show me who is boss. Unwelcome emotion always wins and it always surprises me. I can only sit back and wonder when it will jump out this time. Game on...