Again and Again and Again

So, yes, I'm doing the same old song and dance again and trying to be healthier. I swear I have the best of intentions but, geez, my follow through SUCKS!

But I'm trying again. Again. I started tracking my calories this week and, once more, I'm shocked by how little I eat. It seems that I should be much thinner because of this but apparently I don't starve myself enough to be "starving" but I don't eat enough calories to give me the energy I need. My metabolism is obviously paying the price. Strangely, unlike normal people that have to try to cut back on eating, I'm finding myself looking at 300 calories to still "spend" after dinner every night. This seems like a good problem to have because I like food!! The goal, of course, is to eat healthy things. I'm finding that I need more protein...it's been very, very hard for me to reach the minimum for my weight and activity level (umm...high and low, respectively). So, I'm going to track and think and try this eating right thing again. Maybe this time I'll see the scale move. Maybe I'll discover some energy. Maybe I'll just be better.

I've also discovered that my months and months of neck pain need to be looked into. (Duh). I was hoping that maybe exercise would stretch me out, loosen me up, and fix it. But now, instead of the pain just causing lots of headaches, it's decided to radiate into my back and shoulder and jaw and down my arm. Awesome! See, People, this is why exercise is bad. (And for the record, I am starting out slowly. There is no way I overdid it. My neck just hates me, that's all). And, yes, I do accept free massages. Thanks for asking. Please come soon!

Anyway, it's the same old story on a new day in a new month in a new year. We'll see what happens. Maybe I'll finally discover that willpower I've been looking for...