Now I Know

When you have the gift of impeccable timing it apparently extends to weather, too. That's good to know for the next time I need to make a bet. Although as terrible as I feel today, I probably could've used the medicinal effects of losing.

One Thing

No matter what I say, of all the things I am, I've never even been close to being

Indifferent.

Not once. About anything.

Peering Over The Edge

The frustration that comes from knowing what needs to be done and not doing it. It's an never ending circle of thinking. Procrastination is what I do so well even when the only thing left standing is the next step. But, instead of moving, all I want to know is - when will my turn come?

An Idiot's Haiku

My stomach recoils

Because I may be losing

A bet about rain

What I Need (or at least what I want)

I need a haiku. Nothing profound or extraordinary or awe-inspiring. Just a few syllables laid out neatly in 3 rows. But, in this hand, my mind has drawn a blank.

Standing There I Realized

I was feeling useless. This explains so much.

Another RL - This Time On A Thursday

It's funny how you just break down

Waitin' on some sign.

I pull up to the front of your driveway

with magic soakin' my spine.

Can you read my mind?

Read My Mind - Killers

I Can See The Weekend On The Horizon

Woke up this morning to the sounds of birds through my open window. I love fall!!! I didn't have a headache, everyone woke up in a good mood. Now if the rest of the day can continue that trend I can make it until tomorrow night.

RL

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you

that I almost believe that they're real.

I've been living so long with my pictures of you

that I almost believe that the pictures are all I can feel.

Pictures of You - Cure

That's The Kind Of Cleaning I Like

Today our living room was the scene for an elaborate game that involved unfolding lots of maps and placing them into various piles. I'm not sure what rules the game followed or even what the point was but it kept a four year old busy for 45 minutes so it must've been pretty exciting. After she got bored, I got the job of playing the "Picker Upper" because folding maps isn't always easy and I'd prefer that they stay in one piece. I'm such a sucker for maps. I enjoyed looking at them while folding as much as she enjoyed her fancy game. There are so many places I want to go and so many things to see. And that was just the 17 US maps plus one for the Caribbean. Think of how restless I would be feeling if she had found the others...

I Need A Vacation From Myself

Day 3 of steady headaches. I guess a two week stretch is coming around again. It seems like these streaks keep getting closer and closer together. All I want to do is sleep and still I wake up exhausted and confused. I need to sleep by the ocean, listening to the waves, allowing them to penetrate into my dreams. Then, wake up and sit in the sun with a perfectly meaningless book and a cold drink. Wish I could leave today...I'm freezing.

Random Song Lyrics, Of Course

Did you look up at the stars and feel something for the constellations?
All those lovers round their swings and arrows,
dogs and lions separating touch from touch,
the comedy of distance, the tragedy of separation.

Right Moves - Josh Ritter

They Should Do That Every Week

Soccer practice during a torrential downpour? We had so much fun. I've never laughed so hard or been so happy to be watching kids doing drills. Sure, we arrived home cold and drenched but you know I never turn down a chance to spend time in the rain. Way to make them stick it out, Coach.

Random Song Lyrics for a Monday

If you want to destroy my sweater

Pull this thread as I walk away

Watch me unravel

I'll soon be naked

Lying on the floor

I come undone.

Weezer

I Realize It Now

After days and days and days of denial, I realize I must be wishing for the wrong things. Even ridiculous has its limits. So, from now on, practical wishing only. Maybe I'll wait and start tomorrow...

Who Cares About Flying?

Why is it that I seem to be the only one who would choose to read minds if given the choice of super powers? I'm not good with subtleties or vague responses. I just want to know what everyone is thinking. Really thinking.

I Know It's Simple But...

I don't know of a better way to start a weekend morning - conquering the giant front yard hill with a push mower, coming inside for a scalding hot shower, and drying off dozing naked under a ceiling fan because the house is completely empty and quiet. It's not a lot but it's good.